I know, i did it.
But at the end of the day, your problems are caused by you. What is worse? The few days of withdrawal, or the better part of a year you have spent getting more and more depressed?
You have to make that choice, and bettering yourself takes work, but hard work pays off.
You are using drugs to escape yourself, and your problems. You need to actually solve your problems, but you are in a viscous cycle that, because of your problems, you drink, and because you drink, your problems get worse.
At some point you need to stick a branch in that wheel, and deal with the crash, because when you get back up, you will be much better off.