>>206943>rape is the worst and most scarring thing I've ever experienced.
I understand this viewpoint and I am not at all trying to down play what happened to you, but a lot of people have an experience that hits them as "the worst possible thing." For me it's bullying.
I flip my shit if I hear or see any type of bullying, be it IRL, online, or whatever. So I can understand that level of trauma. In fact I hate the word "Bully" itself because I feel it is too cute and childish sounding for how completely awful and traumatic it actually is. Other forms of abuse get serious sounding names like 'rape', 'assault', 'murder', etc... but if you're harassed every day non stop for years on end to the point where your mind completely shatters and you are left an empty shell of a person who has absolutely no reason to exist beyond the fact that they just haven't died yet, we call it 'bullying'. No one takes that word seriously because it sounds like something a 5 year old would say.
It fucking pisses me off to no end. Again, I am not trying to downplay your experience by any stretch of the imagination, but if I can set aside the trauma of being tortured daily for 17 straight years by every human being I came into contact with to try and see things from another perspective, I feel it would do you a lot of good to let go of the hate you're harboring and try to see people as something more than your past experience.