>>5289>Hmm, well that can be a good thing. Even if you're panicking internally, keeping your reactions cool can be really help depending on the situation.
Yeah, I mean that's the idea anyways, though I'm not sure it was a good life choice actually. Since I'm not necessarily actually doing okay or okay with whats going on but noone thinks they should be concerned about my end of it if I don't seem concerned.
>Ahh, have the sort of sleep deprived look going on?
Yeah, yeah basically always, that and kind of looking super pale as well. My skin has been referred to as being "lily white" before in fact. Which is better than being called a wraith or something at least I guess? Not really what you'd call a "Healthy Looking" complexion though.
>It's definitely a pain, being expected to look happy. Can be nice sometimes, not being noticed out of the crowd... guess that one really depends on context.
Yeah, though for that first bit its mostly a pain if you don't feel up for it at the time...or have to do it super long hours...or are just kind of bad at "looking happy". Like my smiles are really awkward looking ones always.
And yeah, not drawing the eye has probably helped me avoid a lot of serious trouble over the years, but it also means I get left out of the loop a lot too even with people I'm somewhat close with.
Well, it just means that I should probably make the effort to speak up more in situations where I want to be noticed though, like it's definitely not all bad.