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A story to tell... TwilightSpark1e!Magicvjd0sCountry code: ponychan.png, country type: customflag, valid: 1[View All]

Mfw typing this up

I have something to say that has been bugging me since it happened. I'm posting this because I can't think of anywhere else to post it. I need to tell someone, and since I have no one but you guys, I'm posting this here. Yes there are ponies, and no there is no tl:dr.

so here is some back story on my life.
I had an abusive stepfather. there are many memories from watching him get drunk to beating me, to beating my mother, and a lot of other fucked up shit he did. We were constantly moving around, never staying in one place for long so there was no way I could make friends. This lasted since I was born for 8-9 years. I remember this one time, I was 6-7 and I was cowering in the corner of the basement, looking up, watching him beat my mom because she got in the way to stop him from beating me. I can never get this out of my head, and every once in a while I get a flashback of it and others randomly.

It has been 12 years since I’ve seen this him. 4 months ago He found one of my siblings FB accounts, and he wanted to see us. Skipping a lot of details, They all went, and my mom even forgave him. I stayed home wondering why they would even bother trying to forgive him. I cried myself to sleep that night.

Fast forward to a few weeks ago. He wanted to see us again, especially me. He was begging practically, asking for forgiveness for what he's done and such. Only me, my bro, mom, and new stepdad went, to meet him at a restaurant. I thought with all the support with me I'd be able to handle the encounter better. I took my headphones, I decided for some reason to take the rainbow dash toy from mcdonalds with me, and kept her in my pocket.

We arrive at the restaurant and get out when I find out that only me and my brother are going in, and mom and stepdad were going across the street to wait for me. All the confidence I had built up suddenly disappeared. I felt like rainbow dash before the young flyer competition. I must have made this apparent on my face even though I tried to hide it, because my mom tells me that it isn't too late to go back. I reached for my pocket and held onto rainbow dash. I say fuck it, we're already here in as normal a tone as possible but in my mind I'm terrified. We enter the restaurant, turned the corner and there he is sitting at the table.

He saw us, turns around spots us, gets up and comes toward us and then hands out his hand for a handshake. I wanted to yell at the top of my lungs, to grab a chair and beat him with it, to grab a steak knife off of one of the customer’s plates and stab him. But I didn't. I just took the handshake, while barely being able to look at him directly in the eyes, my other hand was in my pocket tight around rainbow dash. It took absolutely every fiber of my being to go and keep looking into his eyes without bursting into tears. He bought the buffet for us and I got a plate of food and I tried to eat.

Here I am sitting in front of the guy that used to torment and beat me just because I walked through the door, and I realize I’m basically eating lunch with him. nothing about the experience was enjoyable. normally I can eat anything but The food for some reason tastes like shit and I can't eat. It feels like every bite makes it harder to keep composure. He starts trying to make small talk trying to get into what I've been up to. He even tries bringing up some "good times" from back then. I couldn't hold it anymore. I excused myself and headed to the bathroom. I get into the farthest stall and I cried. 21 year old male, and here I am crying my eyes out silently in a bathroom stall. I now know the feeling when someone says or you read "and it felt like hours when it was only minutes" kind of thing. Because I felt like I was in there crying for hours. I hit play on my phone and listened to pinkie pie giggle at the ghostly, while I washed my face, trying to cover up that I was crying. the song finished and I headed back outside.

He went and tried talking again, trying to sound friendly and saying that he's sorry and he wished it didn't happe---bullshit. What happened next was the scariest and possibly the bravest thing I've ever done.

I cut him off mid sentence, sat up straight, looked at him straight in the eyes. I told him how many shrinks I've had to go to, how hard it's been to simply make conversations with people But I said all this to him as calmly as I could muster. I retold him of some of the beatings. remembering almost every detail, I even told him the time of day and how much sun was coming in through the window. I told him the many times I wanted him dead and how even right at this moment I wanted him dead. I told him all of this while looking straight at him, gripping rainbow in my hand, my body shaking from fear and adrenaline. The entire time I was there my brother didn't say a word and just let me talk. I got up from the table and left somehow managing to keep it together long enough to get outside before sobbing uncontrollably heading to the car.

The car ride home I broke down. I pulled my hand out of my pocket, and realized that I was squeezing the rainbow dash toy so hard, that it was perfectly indented onto the skin on my hand. I put on my headphones, had giggle at the ghostly on loop trying hard to listen to the words, but couldn't. All the while I was petting rainbow dash. At first I couldn't and kept crying scared out of my mind from what I just did, while trying to giggle and chortle and everything pinkie pie said to do. The song kept going and I was still petting rainbow dash and trying to sing along. Eventually I had calmed down enough to hear...

"she said, pinkie you gotta stand up tall, learn to face your fears"

It took me a little while to realize it. Slowly but surely I giggled, chortled, whooped it up, cracked up, practically yelling the lyrics while laughing, petting rainbow dash and even messing with her hair. I realized right then, that I got dressed for, ate lunch with and while looking him straight in the eye, told off my greatest fear, to his face.


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TwilightSpark1e!Magicvjd0sCountry code: ponychan.png, country type: customflag, valid: 2512594

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>>2512589
Or he could've saved himself, like he made me to.

Not sure if parasprite, but eh

Robin!a4E2TG.TS6Country code: ponychan.png, country type: customflag, valid: 2512595

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>>2512594
Don't listen to that guy. Your stepfather isn't your responsibility at this point, especially after what he's put you through.

Anyway: total brohoof, man. Props to you.

leictreonCountry code: ponychan.png, country type: customflag, valid: 2512596

This man deserves every brohoof in the world.

Best fanbase in the whole world.

ThunderboltCountry code: ponychan.png, country type: customflag, valid: 2512597

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Y'know i bet if you wanted to you would be able knock his teeth to the back of his skull. Nice one mate.

AnonymousCountry code: ponychan.png, country type: customflag, valid: 2512598

/arch/ing this thread doesn't do it justice - there needs to be a new board just for this thread.

TwilightSpark1e!Magicvjd0sCountry code: ponychan.png, country type: customflag, valid: 2512599

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>>2512595
Brohoof robin, thanks
>>2512596
"Best fanbase in the whole world." you got that right leictreon, brohoof
>>2512597
thanks thunderbolt
>>2512598
I don't know about that anon...that maybe a little much mate lol. Thanks for the suggestion though

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U are amazing. An inspiration to everypony!!!

TwilightSpark1e!Magicvjd0sCountry code: ponychan.png, country type: customflag, valid: 2513003

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>>2512998
Thank you bucket :)

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Wow, Just wow... I dont think I will even attempt to contemplate what you have been through. But hear this the Brony community will be here to support you... FOREVER ! I for one am not going anywhere any time soon. This is actually my first visit to Ponychan and i think I will be spending a lot more time here ! Thank you

TwilightSpark1e!Magicvjd0sCountry code: ponychan.png, country type: customflag, valid: 2513008

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>>2513005
Hey there Mrbettney, welcome to ponychan. I haven't posted much in the last few weeks but it's a great place to meet new bronies none-the-less. Hope you have a great time here :)

A story to tell... Anonymous PonyCountry code: ponychan.png, country type: customflag, valid: 2513009

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Immense respect OP.

Immense respect.

439483924 Anonymous PonyCountry code: ponychan.png, country type: customflag, valid: 2513010

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Immense respect OP

immense respect.

:D Country code: ponychan.png, country type: customflag, valid: 2513012

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>>1
Fire The Friendship Cannon!

TwilightSpark1e!Magicvjd0sCountry code: ponychan.png, country type: customflag, valid: 2513018

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>>2513009
>>2513010
>>2513012
Thanks you guys, Brohoof :)

AnonymousCountry code: ponychan.png, country type: customflag, valid: 2513021

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Speechless.

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So touching. If I could see you face to face I would hug you than brohoof you. You are a very brave pony like Rainbow dash

TwilightSpark1e!Magicvjd0sCountry code: ponychan.png, country type: customflag, valid: 2513677

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just a few more days...

AnonymousCountry code: ponychan.png, country type: customflag, valid: 2513678

Im tearing up, you are an amazingly strong person, I wish you the best for the future

You my friend, are a legend. Country code: ponychan.png, country type: customflag, valid: 2513683

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That was amazing. You made me cry with pride that somepony could be so inspired, they say bronies are weak but what you have done is incredible. You are one cool colt. c:

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>>2513683
>>2513678
Thank you guys. YOu have a great day and rest of your lives!

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Be strong and you will get thru

TwilightSpark1e!Magicvjd0sCountry code: ponychan.png, country type: customflag, valid: 2513698

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>>1
According to the thread explaining the history of ponychan, This is officially the 1-year anniversary of my thread.

I made this thread simply explaining what happened to me one day when I was confronted with my alcoholic and abusive stepfather 12 years from when I we finally managed to get away from him.

I never mentioned that after that day, even with all the support from ponychan, I couldn't help but cry, I had panic attacks and I had nightmares for 2-3 months afterwards. I failed every class that semester from not being able to focus on anything.

Since then, I've been able to open up and be myself, the person I really am, rather than the anti-social, vengeful, hating, distrusting, rage-ridden person I made myself out to be for protection.
I have many friends now and even a best friend.
I love going out. I can interact with people. I care. I'm happy.

I consider this date as a second birthday to me. The day where I officially became a brony and the day where my life changed so much and it probably would never have happened without ponies, or with the support from you guys, from ponychan.

Hugs and Sparkles,
TwilightSpark1e

IDPTIMB!a1xY0WGysUCountry code: ponychan.png, country type: customflag, valid: 2513700

>>2513698
Wow. It's already been a year, huh? I remember stumbling upon this thread during a boring night thinking why it was archived. Well, now I know. Who knew these colorful ponies could straight up change lives for the better?

Happy "birthday", CHAMP. Keep rockin'.

Npm!EoTtFZg5IACountry code: ponychan.png, country type: customflag, valid: 2513701

>>2513698
Congrats, TwilightSparkle. I'm really glad that your life has become much happier for you! Happy "Second birthday" and I hope you have many more to come.

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>>2513698
Damn, I missed your "birthday" by a day.
Happy belated anniversary, Twi!

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>>2513700
>>2513701
>>2513704
Thanks alot you guys! *hugs*

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Twilight, is there an email I can reach you by? If you'd rather email me instead, I have mine in the email field.

You're a great person, and I have a kind of similar story I want to tell you in private.

im new and sad ): ellis harvey redwayCountry code: ponychan.png, country type: customflag, valid: 2513738

i just came to this site to ask you for you're friendship this is the only place im welcome i lost some friends by admitting i was a brony thanks for reading

ellis harvey redwayCountry code: ponychan.png, country type: customflag, valid: 2513739

>>1
please if anypony reads this im new and lost friends for being a brony so i wanted to ask if you guys would be my friends

Sure WalkerCountry code: ponychan.png, country type: customflag, valid: 2513741

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I'll be your friend!

ellis harvey redwayCountry code: ponychan.png, country type: customflag, valid: 2513743

>>2513741
thanks

TwilightSpark1e!Magicvjd0sCountry code: ponychan.png, country type: customflag, valid: 2513744

>>2513734
[email protected]
sorry for the late reply

Big_macCountry code: ponychan.png, country type: customflag, valid: 2513745

I too have been through something like this, my bio mom (i have lesbian parents) was a abusive bitch, and it still bothers me to this day because she has yet to admit it (she still thinks it wasn't abuse and it was corporal punishment). She's barely in my life, i haven't seen her in almost a year, she doesn't call me, and I want to tell her to either get in my life or get out, I have told my guardian now that when she dies, I want to go to her funeral to tell everypony how abusive and how i hope no one ever has to go through what i did, I was beaten with a giant ping pong paddle, among other items, and because of the whole situation with my mom i hate cops with a passion because they never believed me until i was beaten so bad that they had to believe me, not many people know about this, but i thought i should tell you, i am tearing up now righting this, and i know that feeling. I just do what a wise man told me to do, keep your head up, you can see heaven better that way, and always remember, what doesnt kill you, makes you stronger

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>>1
I know this won't mean much, 11 days later, coming from a 14 yr old kid in Canada, But I love you man. You stood up and faced your greatest fear. You're the strongest brony I know.
Sentimental bro hoof. /)

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>>2513748
>11 days
Check the year. ♥

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I can understand you.

I also had an abusive stepfather. He didn't beat my mother like yours, but beat me when she wasn't around.He would call me a bitch,priss, and other things. His sons were the worst though. They would try to get me to take off my clothes and get into bed with them or try and rape me. And they actually did twice. I know how it feels to live with that scar your whole life. Its alright ;n;

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Never have I heard such an inspiring story. Literally, I have never heard somepony say anything like you just said. Very individualized, not the grammar frenzied fiction crap I hear and read in school. Many applause to you. /)

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>>2513828
I'm sorry about what you went through. I'd give you a hug if I were there...Thanks for posting, though I'm sorry I can't do much...feels bad. *Hugs*

>>2513838
Thank you, it's because it's real. (\\

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I hate to ask but... Did you ever receive my email? Had this address, had /arch/ in the title.

Not sure how you'd take it, but I thought it was for the best.

TwilightSpark1e!Magicvjd0sCountry code: ponychan.png, country type: customflag, valid: 2516327

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Yes I recieved it.

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I know I only sent it out a few days ago, but I just wanted confirmation.

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Sometimes I read this thread to remind myself of why I still come here.

Ravenscroft !RAVENfu.moCountry code: ponychan.png, country type: customflag, valid: 2516561

Thinking about it...
>1
>2516335

You have been a part of inspiring, from post number one, over two and a half million other messages. Some people would call it an epic if you launched 1000 ships. Frankly, you're more epic than that by far.

Dear Princess Celestia; Today, I learned that some people do not have a good lot in life, and to even begin to change it requires real courage. True courage, straight from the heart. But that change doesn't need to be alone. Your friends may not be standing beside you physically, but true friends are always there, and will give whatever they can to help.

So thank you TwilightSpark1e. You are inspirational.

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>>2516335
Hehe, I've heard of a few people that do that. Thanks I guess.
>>2516561
Your welcome Ravencroft. I'm glad I could help in any way I could.

more than just bravery LacCountry code: ponychan.png, country type: customflag, valid: 2516931

good for you. remember that courage isn't the absence of fear, but the mastery of it. you are also a MAN, dude, for only real men can recognize their feelings and control the time and place they are expressed. (yes, you broke down, but you excused yourself, cried the tears that needed to be shed, then regained your composure and joined the table) You have started to fly, soon you will SOAR! blessings to you on your continued adventure

AnonymousCountry code: ponychan.png, country type: customflag, valid: 2516983

So proud of you, OP.

TwilightSpark1e!Magicvjd0sCountry code: ponychan.png, country type: customflag, valid: 2517607

Happy 2nd MLP:FIM anniversary

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Wow OP, not only are you the most courageous person I could ever hope to meet, but also a brilliant writer. This story (with a few minor changes) could go on equestria daily, right now. I really hope I can be like you if I'm ever caught in such a horrible situation.

AnonymousCountry code: ponychan.png, country type: customflag, valid: 2517645

>>1
That is beyond awesome in terms of bravery.


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