A few weeks ago, I've made a thread about a choice that was given to me.
Because of my particular stomach condition, I would have only had three years left until my organs gave out. Three years of continued and increasing suffering until I'd painfully wither away.
But I was offered a solution. A drastic surgery to completely remove the core of my problems: My stomach itself. Yet, this kind of surgery is very risky on its own, and combined with my already damaged other intestines... My chances of surviving the procedure are slim. Very slim.
It took me a lot of thought, persuation and support to make a decision, and even since then I have felt bitter regret about my choice more then once. It's a gamble with my life, and the odds are significantly stacked against me... But it's too late to change things now.
Tomorrow morning I will be picked up and taken into the hospital, where I'll be held in my room until the surgery the day afterwards. I'll be restricted from any kind of online media during this time.
Considering how early tomorrow I'll be taken in, and how large the chance is that I'll not make it... I fear that tonight may be the last time you'll ever see me.
And so, I just want to leave a final message for everybody, should things take a turn for the worse.
During my stay on Ponychan, I have met many people, and I have learnt almost as many things. I have met Anonymous posters who were recognised by just their posting habits, who have taught me that you do not always need to establish your identity to establish yourself. I have met posters who habitually posted as video game characters, government celebrities, and even as psychopaths from the past, who have taught me to never judge a person just from a mask. I have met posters who actually met and formed couples, and I have met poster couples that separated for better or worse, both of whom have taught me that fate isn't always logical. I have met posters who weathered the times of being looked down on for using OC's and even established both a good name and status for themselves, who have taught me to never stop being who you are. I have met people who have regarded the well-being of others as important as their own, or sometimes even more important as their own, who have inspired me always strive and become a better person. I have met people who were once crippl