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>Given the effect I think it's safe to assume that the opposite of anxiety is irritability.
I think, like a smoker trying to quit smoking, a coffee drinker trying to quit coffee will become very irritable in the short run. Caffeine introduces a certain amount of focus and clarity to the head, and when a heavy coffee drinker gives that up the mess of unfocussed thoughts is very irritating and leaves that person with a short temper. But, like smoking, I think it's an illusion - you know how a smoker with cigarettes is calm, a smoker without cigarettes is irritated, but a non-smoker is the calmest of them all? I think it's the same without caffeine. Drinking caffeine makes the mind lazy when it comes to focusing on a task and not dreaming about other things. So getting used to focusing without it takes time and until you get good at it again you are irritable and badly focused. This is disappointing news for me because I'm in the last few months of my undergraduate degree and I'm not sure I can afford to train myself through all that. I might save kicking the habit until after then.
As for Facebook, I am aware of its uses, and I'm quite pleased by them. Messaging, networking, finding out about social events. But for someone with issues of insecurity, like me, it can be a dangerous place for the reasons I've set out above. But I think I have found a happy medium of self-disciplined use. No idle browsing.
Agh, anxiety ... I used to think I had depression and now I think I have anxiety. It's a rollercoaster ride. But I can handle the idea of anxiety better than depression. And I do feel better than I used to. I don't feel so totally hopeless and worthless now, I just feel like I worry about everything too much. Which is good, right? Because it means I know that the reality is not as bad as I'm making it out to be. And I just need to learn the self-discipline to control my worrying.